Something I’m sure you’ve all noticed and that I’m definitely self-conscious about is the nature of my poems. I rarely write happy poetry, or poetry that is remotely positive. I feel self-conscious because I worry my poetry may be hurtful to others who struggle with their own negative emotions.
Well, poetry is cathartic for me. It allows me to say the things I can’t say in regular words, sentences, paragraphs…. If I’m happy, I feel I can be pretty open about it. If I’m happy, it’s usually because of positive things. If I’m upset, it’s usually due to other people, and I don’t want to name and shame. I’ve tried to channel my happy feelings into poetry, but it just doesn’t work the same way.
“Take your broken heart and turn it into art.” Those are the words of Carrie Fisher, of blessed memory – an actress I’ve always wanted to meet (and hope someday to meet when my time is up), and an author I don’t plan to read. But these wise words resonate with me.
My heart has been broken plenty of times, though not in the way Taylor Swift or Carrie Fisher or other amatonormative artists likely discuss in their works. The best thing I can do is make art out of my negative feelings. I can only do so much venting to my fellow, fallible humans.
Still, I hope sometime I’ll get better at channeling other emotions into verse. Art should inspire others to make better art, even if I’m not there yet.